My Black Rose

My Black Rose

The fate of our love

has long since passed
the tears from my heart
create an ocean, vast

the sorrow cannot compare
than that of a heartbreak
for i have learned this lesson
and tears i can no longer make

My black rose lays perfect
on the white sheen of satin
"mea occidit dejectus"
on my tombstone in Latin

~FreeStyler~

Breaking The Habit

Breaking The Habit

Wounds scar my emotions,
When my heart yearned for you,
but truth paints an overcast 
with torn sheets of paper
as a simple contrast,
denying what I know is true.

Holding on to what I should let go,
I stand in opposition of the wind,
fighting a useless battle I can't win.
So why do I fight once again,
when I could let these wounds mend
when I could just let this all end.

So I'm breaking the habit
and closing the veins that bleed
as I close my eyes for the last time
for I am standing above the hurt,
and finally I know that all I need
is to release myself of these binds…

~FreeStyler~

Restless Nights

Restless Nights

Pain bleeds from my soul
And escapes through my eyes
As I lie awake in bed
She never hears my silent cries

I stare at the clock
Another hour has passed
I lay in silence thinking
Of our love that didn't last

It still tears me apart
Just to hear your name
Cause without you here
Nothing is quite the same

When I close my eyes
All I see is your face
And all those memories
That you have erased

But it's just another night
Something I've gotten used to
So I just lay there and cry
With nothing else to do

~FreeStyler~

Mascara Bleeds

Mascara Bleeds

The music gets darker
As the fans jump around
Getting with the beat
And hopping to the sound
Moving to each note
The guitarist makes
With each person jumping
The floor starts to shake

And they sing about hurt
And they sing about pain
They tell us what they do
To hide all the shame
And the tears start flowing
As the music starts to feed
And the face gets sadder
And the mascara starts to bleed

Every single word 
Has a meaning to its name
The singer uses these words
To find somebody to blame
For all the hurt inside them
That just won't go away
So they sing away their sorrows
To feel better for today

The bitterness and anger
Trapped inside one soul
So music is their answer
To reach their endless goal
And they stamp their feet
And they bang their drums
Then everyone relates
So the fans start to come

And they sing about hurt
And they sing about pain
They tell us what they do

To hide all the shame
And the tears start flowing
As the music starts to feed
And the face gets sadder
And the mascara starts to bleed 

~FreeStyler~

My Shining Star

My Shining Star

You came to me
When I needed support
Like a friend you stand
With me till the end

Helping me to see light
I've been in the dark to long
Giving me love and hope
Reasons to carry on

Giving me your courage
Smiling now when I rise
From wisdom you shared
Sparkle returned to my eyes

Your shoulder I lean on
You're my shining star
You lend me your strength
Lifting me up from afar

How do I thank you
For what you've given me
Words do not seem enough
For what you made me see

So just for you alone
My arms I do extend
Giving you all my love
Forever my friend…

~FreeStyler~

Springs Lost Beauty

Springs Lost Beauty

With spring comes cruel sorrow

That you're no longer here
Darkness now entombs me
My thoughts painfully unclear

Blinding eyes against sunlight
Deaf to birds enchanted songs
April rains have lost meaning
Finding it hard staying strong

Lilac's scent no longer entices
Early strawberries taste not found
Velvet blooms lost their softness
Senses frozen in winter ground

Need love once more to waken
Nature's beauty all around
Filling souls again with warmth
Melting coldness that surrounds

~FreeStyler~

Trapped

Trapped

Trapped in this body
No longer existing
Yesterdays are distant dreams
Left with a heart bleeding


Everyday grows longer
Time seems to stand still
Closing my eyes to life
Sleeping away all that's real


Sadness has become me
Happiness is all pretend
Depression all around 
Darkness has become my friend


How many more years
Can I endure this pain
Waiting to join you
Yet here alone I remain

~FreeStyler~