Restless Nights

Restless Nights

Pain bleeds from my soul
And escapes through my eyes
As I lie awake in bed
She never hears my silent cries

I stare at the clock
Another hour has passed
I lay in silence thinking
Of our love that didn't last

It still tears me apart
Just to hear your name
Cause without you here
Nothing is quite the same

When I close my eyes
All I see is your face
And all those memories
That you have erased

But it's just another night
Something I've gotten used to
So I just lay there and cry
With nothing else to do

~FreeStyler~

Trapped

Trapped

Trapped in this body
No longer existing
Yesterdays are distant dreams
Left with a heart bleeding


Everyday grows longer
Time seems to stand still
Closing my eyes to life
Sleeping away all that's real


Sadness has become me
Happiness is all pretend
Depression all around 
Darkness has become my friend


How many more years
Can I endure this pain
Waiting to join you
Yet here alone I remain

~FreeStyler~

Painful Night

Painful Nights

Each night intense burning heat
Like a molten iron brand
Shooting through every nerve
Making it impossible to stand

Stabbing like hot pokers
Delirious thoughts, blinding pain
Nothing left untouched by this
Finding it's way to my brain

Trying so hard to find comfort
So I pop another pill
They don't seem to work anymore
Just a part of being ill

Letting my mind wander
To a peaceful serene place
Far away from where I am
A place of beauty and grace

Close my eyes waiting for relief
Will tonight be my last
Can I finally find happiness
Living in memories of my past

Will the pain overtake me
Shocking me back to what's real
Or let me peacefully slumber
Praying for one night not to feel

~Freestyler~

Drowning

Drowning

Sometimes I wonder,
If life is worth it.
Sometimes I ponder,
If I should risk it.

I feel so alone,
Broken and cold.
Friends are gone,
To a place unknown.

Why did they leave?
What did I do?
Am I not a good enough friend,
That you could take with you?

What have I done?
To deserve this pain,
To be shunned from all,
Can't you explain?

I feel so lost,
Don't know what to do.
No matter how hard I try,
I'm made as a fool.

When will everything be alright again?

Empty Glass

Empty Glass
Feeling like an empty glass,
Please fill me up.
Fill me up with love, care and stability
I can no longer stand like this.


Without love and care,
I fall to the ground.
I shatter to a million pieces
Yet no one still cares.


Eventually I am swept away
And thrown into the garbage can.
That's the end of life for me
A broken glass, neglected and forgotten...

LonelY..

• Another day has gone
• I'm still all alone
• How could this be
• You're not here with me
• You never said goodbye
• Someone tell me why
• Did you have to go
• And leave my world so cold
• Everyday I sit and ask myself
• How did love slip away
• Something whispers in my ear and says
• That you are not alone
• For I am here to stay
• Though you're far away
• I am here to stay
• You are not alone
• I am here with you
• Though we're far apart
• You're always in my heart
• You are not alone
• All alone
• Why, alone
• Just the other night
• I thought I heard you cry
• Asking me to come
• And hold you in my arms
• I can hear your prayers
• Your burdens I will bear
• But first I need your hand
• Then forever can begin
• Everyday I sit and ask myself
• How did love slip away
• Something whispers in my ear and says
• That you are not alone
• For I am here to stay
• Though you're far away
• I am here to stay
• You are not alone
• I am here with you
• Though we're far apart
• You're always in my heart
• You are not alone
• Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
• And girl you know that
• I'll be there
• I'll be there
• You are not alone
• I am here with you
• Though we're far apart
• You're always in my heart
• You are not alone...