Another Sleepless Night

Another Sleepless Night

Distance separates two hearts

that used to beat as one..
Time spins forever forward
with each rising of the sun..

His hands are in another land
a place I will never see..
He's so far across the ocean
yet his hearts still here with me..

I close my eyes and picture him
I miss his face so much..
I need to taste his mouth on mine
yearn to feel his gentle touch..

His scent lingers on his pillow
It's held tight within my arm..
God speed his love back to me
and keep him from all harm..

Without him here beside me
nothing in my world seems right..
I'll close my eyes and dream him here
Another sleepless night....

~Freestyler~

Painful Night

Painful Nights

Each night intense burning heat
Like a molten iron brand
Shooting through every nerve
Making it impossible to stand

Stabbing like hot pokers
Delirious thoughts, blinding pain
Nothing left untouched by this
Finding it's way to my brain

Trying so hard to find comfort
So I pop another pill
They don't seem to work anymore
Just a part of being ill

Letting my mind wander
To a peaceful serene place
Far away from where I am
A place of beauty and grace

Close my eyes waiting for relief
Will tonight be my last
Can I finally find happiness
Living in memories of my past

Will the pain overtake me
Shocking me back to what's real
Or let me peacefully slumber
Praying for one night not to feel

~Freestyler~

Drowning

Drowning

Sometimes I wonder,
If life is worth it.
Sometimes I ponder,
If I should risk it.

I feel so alone,
Broken and cold.
Friends are gone,
To a place unknown.

Why did they leave?
What did I do?
Am I not a good enough friend,
That you could take with you?

What have I done?
To deserve this pain,
To be shunned from all,
Can't you explain?

I feel so lost,
Don't know what to do.
No matter how hard I try,
I'm made as a fool.

When will everything be alright again?

A Month Without You

A Month without You

Been a Month since I’ve felt relief in your arms
mind lost in wonder as my thoughts
continue to swarm
feel like I’m letting you down
cuz i never get to see you
but just remember 
the only girl I love will always be you
just promise me one thing
I’ll be the reason you smile
cuz as long as i can do that
you make my life worthwhile
ur all I ever think about
second of every day
every I think you are perfection 
in each and every way

I know you don’t think so
but you gotta open your eyes
because all I see is your beauty
past pains disguise
baby to soothe your pain
ill do anything and everything
because in a world of nothing 
you are my everything
ill take one second with you
over a life without you any day
if you weren’t in my life I got nothing to live for anyway…

"Freestyler"

Changed

Changed

Crawling on the floor,
trying to get to the door.
Face black and blue,
not having a clue.
What to do,
where to go,
who to show,
who can help.
Cloths stained with red,
bleeding on her head,
trying to get out,
not enough strength to shout.
No help around,
can't make a sound,
it can't get worse
but still doesn't give up....
5 years later,
3 kids, 
nice place,
strong mind with a beautiful face.
Happy with a husband,
and a real true friend.
Knowing she'll never go back,
Picking food over a dime sack.
On her own without a pimp,
standing strong and not so limp.
No more drugs,
no longer banging with thugs.
Got herself of the ground
and completely turned her life around....

Colours Of Life

The Colours Of Life

Blue is the sadness dwelled inside, 

A troubled soul that has been denied,

Of love and friendship in this world,

When hate and envy are unfurled.

Grey is the color of the falling rain,

Weeping with insanity that was never explained.

It's the mourning and the sadness formed inside, 

Our worried selves, filled with pride.

Black is as deep as emotions can go,

Revealing everything it can possibly show.

This is when we all break down,

And in our emotions we seem to drown.

Yellow is the happiness we all possess,

That allows us laughter we can all express.

Through all our times of sadness and woe,

Yellow is the color we all need to know.

Colors are rather precisely unique,

All containing their own physique.

But in order to live every day of our lives,

We've got to make sure every color survives...

~Freestyler~

A Tear Of Forgiveness

A Tear Of Forgiveness

She stands alone in the darkness
Without fear, without hesitation,
She will wait for a thousand years
Beyond eternity, she gazes
Her neck stout and held high
She cannot be detered

She controls time and space
Voices whisper around her
Muttering lies and words of betrayal
She listens to the sound of the wind
Blowing through a windchime 300 miles away
No words could be spoken to break her

A single expression, thoughtless expression
Is strewn across her face
As if she was stiff, still, a statue like figure
Amongst the shadows she stands
A single bloody tear drop falls from her eye
Breaking the plain of a puddle under foot

Waves of emotion cease to exist
In her time or in any other
Death and decay have consumed her soul
She no longer breaths purely
But contamination and over population
Ruin the integrity and honest of her world

Alone, a single bloody tear falls
Creating chaos and tragedy
No remorse for the sick
No sadness for the deadly sins
Created by this cold bitter world
And yet, she still sheds a bloody tear…