Drowning

Drowning

Sometimes I wonder,
If life is worth it.
Sometimes I ponder,
If I should risk it.

I feel so alone,
Broken and cold.
Friends are gone,
To a place unknown.

Why did they leave?
What did I do?
Am I not a good enough friend,
That you could take with you?

What have I done?
To deserve this pain,
To be shunned from all,
Can't you explain?

I feel so lost,
Don't know what to do.
No matter how hard I try,
I'm made as a fool.

When will everything be alright again?

A Month Without You

A Month without You

Been a Month since I’ve felt relief in your arms
mind lost in wonder as my thoughts
continue to swarm
feel like I’m letting you down
cuz i never get to see you
but just remember 
the only girl I love will always be you
just promise me one thing
I’ll be the reason you smile
cuz as long as i can do that
you make my life worthwhile
ur all I ever think about
second of every day
every I think you are perfection 
in each and every way

I know you don’t think so
but you gotta open your eyes
because all I see is your beauty
past pains disguise
baby to soothe your pain
ill do anything and everything
because in a world of nothing 
you are my everything
ill take one second with you
over a life without you any day
if you weren’t in my life I got nothing to live for anyway…

"Freestyler"

Changed

Changed

Crawling on the floor,
trying to get to the door.
Face black and blue,
not having a clue.
What to do,
where to go,
who to show,
who can help.
Cloths stained with red,
bleeding on her head,
trying to get out,
not enough strength to shout.
No help around,
can't make a sound,
it can't get worse
but still doesn't give up....
5 years later,
3 kids, 
nice place,
strong mind with a beautiful face.
Happy with a husband,
and a real true friend.
Knowing she'll never go back,
Picking food over a dime sack.
On her own without a pimp,
standing strong and not so limp.
No more drugs,
no longer banging with thugs.
Got herself of the ground
and completely turned her life around....

Colours Of Life

The Colours Of Life

Blue is the sadness dwelled inside, 

A troubled soul that has been denied,

Of love and friendship in this world,

When hate and envy are unfurled.

Grey is the color of the falling rain,

Weeping with insanity that was never explained.

It's the mourning and the sadness formed inside, 

Our worried selves, filled with pride.

Black is as deep as emotions can go,

Revealing everything it can possibly show.

This is when we all break down,

And in our emotions we seem to drown.

Yellow is the happiness we all possess,

That allows us laughter we can all express.

Through all our times of sadness and woe,

Yellow is the color we all need to know.

Colors are rather precisely unique,

All containing their own physique.

But in order to live every day of our lives,

We've got to make sure every color survives...

~Freestyler~

A Tear Of Forgiveness

A Tear Of Forgiveness

She stands alone in the darkness
Without fear, without hesitation,
She will wait for a thousand years
Beyond eternity, she gazes
Her neck stout and held high
She cannot be detered

She controls time and space
Voices whisper around her
Muttering lies and words of betrayal
She listens to the sound of the wind
Blowing through a windchime 300 miles away
No words could be spoken to break her

A single expression, thoughtless expression
Is strewn across her face
As if she was stiff, still, a statue like figure
Amongst the shadows she stands
A single bloody tear drop falls from her eye
Breaking the plain of a puddle under foot

Waves of emotion cease to exist
In her time or in any other
Death and decay have consumed her soul
She no longer breaths purely
But contamination and over population
Ruin the integrity and honest of her world

Alone, a single bloody tear falls
Creating chaos and tragedy
No remorse for the sick
No sadness for the deadly sins
Created by this cold bitter world
And yet, she still sheds a bloody tear…

Unfaithful

"Unfaithful"

Story of my life, searching for the right

But it keeps avoiding me

Sorrow in my soul, cause it seems that wrong

Really loves my company

He's more than a man and this is more than love

The reason that the sky is blue

But clouds are rolling in because I'm gone again

And to him I just can't be true

And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful

And it kills him inside

To know that I am happy with some other guy

I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore

I don't wanna be the reason why

Every time I walk out the door

I see him die a little more inside

I don't wanna hurt him anymore

I don't wanna take away his life

I don't wanna be a murderer

I feel it in the air as I'm doing my hair

Preparing for another date

A kiss up on my cheek, he's here reluctantly

As if I'm gonna be out late

I say I won't be long just hanging with the girls

A lie I didn't have to tell

Because we both know where I'm about to go

And we know it very well

Cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful

And it kills him inside

To know that I am happy with some other guy

I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore

I don't wanna be the reason why

Every time I walk out the door

I see him die a little more inside

I don't wanna hurt him anymore

I don't wanna take away his life

I don't wanna be a murderer

Our love, his trust

I might as well take a gun

And put it to his head

Get it over with

I don't wanna do this

Anymore, anymore

And I don't wanna do this anymore

I don't wanna be the reason why

And every time I walk out the door

I see him die a little more inside

And I don't wanna hurt him anymore

I don't wanna take away his life

I don't wanna be a murderer

A murderer, No no no

Yeah!!

Nothing Less, Nothing More

Nothing Less, Nothing More…

Just look upon my arms,
You'll find treasure, there.
I won't have to explain,
You might not even care...

I'm giving you my very all,
If you would like to seek.
Open up both your eyes,
Tell me now, I'm still weak...

Tell me I made some art,
By drawings on my arm.
Don't speak I'll be okay,
If you see beyond harm...

I will show you how deep,
If you open up your eyes.
Don't tell me it's all false,
I know which ones are lies...

Just tell me all what I am;
Nothing less, nothing more.
Don't tell me to go on,
If there's nothing to fight for…..