MySelf

By  Freestyler

Beside Myself

Beside Myself

Diving head first into the unknown
Lost and confused as life passes me by
Everything is a big blur
Hiding all the pain I cannot bear to show

Falling but wishing I could fly
Not knowing where to turn, oh what to do
Silently screaming, no one hears my cry
Feeling pathetic as my heart gets torn in two

Over and over again I am left behind
Like my life is on a repeating cycle
I'm trying so hard to break these chains
Trying to escape from these constant pains

Feeling so weak, but not giving up
Tripping, stumbling, tumbling down
Searching for anything to grasp and hold near
Trying to stand up against these fears

I tell myself, do not be afraid
One day, it will all be okay
Until that day I just need to stay strong
Beside myself is where I belong… 

Freestyler...

Fading Out

Fading Out

You're all alone, swollen up with hate.

Fighting against what seems to be your fate.

You could run or hide but there is no escape.

All roads lead you back to your first mistake...

You feel alive with pain, but powerless with fear.

It claws through your brain, and escapes in a tear.

You want to let it out, to make it go away.

But your so filled with doubt, confused what others say...

You hate the days before, the days you could smile.

You just want to ignore those memories for a while.

Because you can't tell what's real or what is fake.

You keep falling apart with every step you take...

You're too lost, too cold,

To ever be saved.

It's like you're living life

walking to your grave.....

My Dwelling Place

My Dwelling Place

This emotion has swallowed me whole
It has gotten inside and has taken control
Holding me hostage eroding my soul
Cutting into my core leaving a hole

A void a weakness something stronger than me
Blatantly bullying the parts that you cannot see
If only from my own feelings I could finally flee
I could cut away this emotion and set myself free 

Instead of being a prisoner trapped here in my mind
Scared to look deeper in fear of what it is I may find
Because these emotions they have me resigned
Bound and cut off so cleverly confined

Court up and tied in my own personal hell
Leaving me broken just an empty shell
With no-one to go to and no-one to tell
Inside my own body I sit and I dwell

Empty Glass

Empty Glass
Feeling like an empty glass,
Please fill me up.
Fill me up with love, care and stability
I can no longer stand like this.


Without love and care,
I fall to the ground.
I shatter to a million pieces
Yet no one still cares.


Eventually I am swept away
And thrown into the garbage can.
That's the end of life for me
A broken glass, neglected and forgotten...

SiL3nT

"SiL3nT"

CANT B3LI3V3 I F3LL AGAIN

DIDNT THINK WITH MY H3AD

I JUZT LIST3N3D TO UR WORDS

AND BABY I F3LT NO STR3SS

I WAS JUST BLIND TO S33

THAT W3 COULD N3V3R B3

I WAS JUST WASTING MY TIM3

ON SOM3THING THAT COULD'VE B33N

BUT IT N3V3R R3ALLY DID

AND IM TIR3D OF F33LING LIKE THIS

WAITING FOR YOU TO CHANG3

AND BLAMING MYS3LF ONC3 AGAIN

BUT THATS ALL CHANG3D

CUZ IM TIR3D OF LIVIN THIS WAY

ITS MY TIM3 TO L3AV3

AND NOW UR JUST ANOTH3R M3MORY

ILL FIND SOM3ON3 N3W

MAYB3 SOM3ON3 WITH A DIFF3R3NT ATTITUD3

IM SORRY FOR B3LI3VING THIS CRAZY DR3AM

I SHUDDA KNOWN B3TT3R

BUT I THOUGHT W3 W3R3 M3ANT TO B3

NOW I S33 YOUR TRU3 COLORS

AND 3V3N THOUGH IV3 TRI3D I CAN N3V3R HAT3

I CAN FORGIV3 BUT ILL N3V3R FORG3T

CUZ ONC3 A LIAR ALWAYS A LIAR THATS WAT PPL3 SAY

IM NOT GONNA BLAM3 MYS3LF THIS TIM3

CUZ I TRI3D AND I TRI3D

I THOUGHT W3 JUST N33D3D SOM3 TIM3

BUT WHY'D YOU HAV3 TO LI3

I CRI3D FOR YOU B3FOR3 BUT THIS TIM3 NOT 3V3N A SINGL3 TEAR

CUZ IM NO LONG3R A FOOL AND CUZ N0W I KN0W WAT IS R3AL .....

By FreeStyler..

The Pain You Gave Me...

I've been living my life alone
trying to get you out of my life
but after all this time
i can't help myself but miss you

you're once a dream that came true
an illusion that turned to reality
but suddenly, things turned differently
the way they used to be
untill such time i have no choice but to let you go

you're the reason for my sleepless nights
coz you keep stayin' on my mind
i can't help myself from crying
coz i'm missing you so much........

all the pain & sadness are bound inside my heart
all the memories are still preserve in my mind
i miss you so much
coz i can't hide the fact that i'm still inlove with you

my life will never be the same again
now that you're gone
i'll be trapped in this loneliness forever
coz i will remain on my words....

I thought this was a letter I would never have to write,
I hoped my tongue was something I could bite.
I've realized its just something I cannot do,
Here are my feelings, just a few.
First, I'm still so In Love with you, after all this time,
You told me the same, then left me, what a crime.
Time has passed, everyday you're on my mind,
Your love is with someone else now, what a bind.
I'm so jealous, he's the luckiest guy I know,
I can't do this friendship thing anymore, so off I go.
The pain of losing you is still fresh in my brain,
even after almost a year, everyday my heart feels the pain.
Will we ever be together again, i say as I sob and mope
as each day passes, I lose a little more hope.
I'll always LOVE you hold these words true
Don't hate me for this, this is what pain is making me do.
My heart is broken in so many a part.......
Do I still have a place in your heart???