Springs Lost Beauty

Springs Lost Beauty

With spring comes cruel sorrow

That you're no longer here
Darkness now entombs me
My thoughts painfully unclear

Blinding eyes against sunlight
Deaf to birds enchanted songs
April rains have lost meaning
Finding it hard staying strong

Lilac's scent no longer entices
Early strawberries taste not found
Velvet blooms lost their softness
Senses frozen in winter ground

Need love once more to waken
Nature's beauty all around
Filling souls again with warmth
Melting coldness that surrounds

~FreeStyler~

Trapped

Trapped

Trapped in this body
No longer existing
Yesterdays are distant dreams
Left with a heart bleeding


Everyday grows longer
Time seems to stand still
Closing my eyes to life
Sleeping away all that's real


Sadness has become me
Happiness is all pretend
Depression all around 
Darkness has become my friend


How many more years
Can I endure this pain
Waiting to join you
Yet here alone I remain

~FreeStyler~

Another Sleepless Night

Another Sleepless Night

Distance separates two hearts

that used to beat as one..
Time spins forever forward
with each rising of the sun..

His hands are in another land
a place I will never see..
He's so far across the ocean
yet his hearts still here with me..

I close my eyes and picture him
I miss his face so much..
I need to taste his mouth on mine
yearn to feel his gentle touch..

His scent lingers on his pillow
It's held tight within my arm..
God speed his love back to me
and keep him from all harm..

Without him here beside me
nothing in my world seems right..
I'll close my eyes and dream him here
Another sleepless night....

~Freestyler~

Painful Night

Painful Nights

Each night intense burning heat
Like a molten iron brand
Shooting through every nerve
Making it impossible to stand

Stabbing like hot pokers
Delirious thoughts, blinding pain
Nothing left untouched by this
Finding it's way to my brain

Trying so hard to find comfort
So I pop another pill
They don't seem to work anymore
Just a part of being ill

Letting my mind wander
To a peaceful serene place
Far away from where I am
A place of beauty and grace

Close my eyes waiting for relief
Will tonight be my last
Can I finally find happiness
Living in memories of my past

Will the pain overtake me
Shocking me back to what's real
Or let me peacefully slumber
Praying for one night not to feel

~Freestyler~