Drowning

Drowning

Sometimes I wonder,
If life is worth it.
Sometimes I ponder,
If I should risk it.

I feel so alone,
Broken and cold.
Friends are gone,
To a place unknown.

Why did they leave?
What did I do?
Am I not a good enough friend,
That you could take with you?

What have I done?
To deserve this pain,
To be shunned from all,
Can't you explain?

I feel so lost,
Don't know what to do.
No matter how hard I try,
I'm made as a fool.

When will everything be alright again?

A Month Without You

A Month without You

Been a Month since I’ve felt relief in your arms
mind lost in wonder as my thoughts
continue to swarm
feel like I’m letting you down
cuz i never get to see you
but just remember 
the only girl I love will always be you
just promise me one thing
I’ll be the reason you smile
cuz as long as i can do that
you make my life worthwhile
ur all I ever think about
second of every day
every I think you are perfection 
in each and every way

I know you don’t think so
but you gotta open your eyes
because all I see is your beauty
past pains disguise
baby to soothe your pain
ill do anything and everything
because in a world of nothing 
you are my everything
ill take one second with you
over a life without you any day
if you weren’t in my life I got nothing to live for anyway…

"Freestyler"

Changed

Changed

Crawling on the floor,
trying to get to the door.
Face black and blue,
not having a clue.
What to do,
where to go,
who to show,
who can help.
Cloths stained with red,
bleeding on her head,
trying to get out,
not enough strength to shout.
No help around,
can't make a sound,
it can't get worse
but still doesn't give up....
5 years later,
3 kids, 
nice place,
strong mind with a beautiful face.
Happy with a husband,
and a real true friend.
Knowing she'll never go back,
Picking food over a dime sack.
On her own without a pimp,
standing strong and not so limp.
No more drugs,
no longer banging with thugs.
Got herself of the ground
and completely turned her life around....

Colours Of Life

The Colours Of Life

Blue is the sadness dwelled inside, 

A troubled soul that has been denied,

Of love and friendship in this world,

When hate and envy are unfurled.

Grey is the color of the falling rain,

Weeping with insanity that was never explained.

It's the mourning and the sadness formed inside, 

Our worried selves, filled with pride.

Black is as deep as emotions can go,

Revealing everything it can possibly show.

This is when we all break down,

And in our emotions we seem to drown.

Yellow is the happiness we all possess,

That allows us laughter we can all express.

Through all our times of sadness and woe,

Yellow is the color we all need to know.

Colors are rather precisely unique,

All containing their own physique.

But in order to live every day of our lives,

We've got to make sure every color survives...

~Freestyler~

A Tear Of Forgiveness

A Tear Of Forgiveness

She stands alone in the darkness
Without fear, without hesitation,
She will wait for a thousand years
Beyond eternity, she gazes
Her neck stout and held high
She cannot be detered

She controls time and space
Voices whisper around her
Muttering lies and words of betrayal
She listens to the sound of the wind
Blowing through a windchime 300 miles away
No words could be spoken to break her

A single expression, thoughtless expression
Is strewn across her face
As if she was stiff, still, a statue like figure
Amongst the shadows she stands
A single bloody tear drop falls from her eye
Breaking the plain of a puddle under foot

Waves of emotion cease to exist
In her time or in any other
Death and decay have consumed her soul
She no longer breaths purely
But contamination and over population
Ruin the integrity and honest of her world

Alone, a single bloody tear falls
Creating chaos and tragedy
No remorse for the sick
No sadness for the deadly sins
Created by this cold bitter world
And yet, she still sheds a bloody tear…

Unfaithful

"Unfaithful"

Story of my life, searching for the right

But it keeps avoiding me

Sorrow in my soul, cause it seems that wrong

Really loves my company

He's more than a man and this is more than love

The reason that the sky is blue

But clouds are rolling in because I'm gone again

And to him I just can't be true

And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful

And it kills him inside

To know that I am happy with some other guy

I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore

I don't wanna be the reason why

Every time I walk out the door

I see him die a little more inside

I don't wanna hurt him anymore

I don't wanna take away his life

I don't wanna be a murderer

I feel it in the air as I'm doing my hair

Preparing for another date

A kiss up on my cheek, he's here reluctantly

As if I'm gonna be out late

I say I won't be long just hanging with the girls

A lie I didn't have to tell

Because we both know where I'm about to go

And we know it very well

Cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful

And it kills him inside

To know that I am happy with some other guy

I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore

I don't wanna be the reason why

Every time I walk out the door

I see him die a little more inside

I don't wanna hurt him anymore

I don't wanna take away his life

I don't wanna be a murderer

Our love, his trust

I might as well take a gun

And put it to his head

Get it over with

I don't wanna do this

Anymore, anymore

And I don't wanna do this anymore

I don't wanna be the reason why

And every time I walk out the door

I see him die a little more inside

And I don't wanna hurt him anymore

I don't wanna take away his life

I don't wanna be a murderer

A murderer, No no no

Yeah!!

Nothing Less, Nothing More

Nothing Less, Nothing More…

Just look upon my arms,
You'll find treasure, there.
I won't have to explain,
You might not even care...

I'm giving you my very all,
If you would like to seek.
Open up both your eyes,
Tell me now, I'm still weak...

Tell me I made some art,
By drawings on my arm.
Don't speak I'll be okay,
If you see beyond harm...

I will show you how deep,
If you open up your eyes.
Don't tell me it's all false,
I know which ones are lies...

Just tell me all what I am;
Nothing less, nothing more.
Don't tell me to go on,
If there's nothing to fight for…..

MySelf

By  Freestyler

Beside Myself

Beside Myself

Diving head first into the unknown
Lost and confused as life passes me by
Everything is a big blur
Hiding all the pain I cannot bear to show

Falling but wishing I could fly
Not knowing where to turn, oh what to do
Silently screaming, no one hears my cry
Feeling pathetic as my heart gets torn in two

Over and over again I am left behind
Like my life is on a repeating cycle
I'm trying so hard to break these chains
Trying to escape from these constant pains

Feeling so weak, but not giving up
Tripping, stumbling, tumbling down
Searching for anything to grasp and hold near
Trying to stand up against these fears

I tell myself, do not be afraid
One day, it will all be okay
Until that day I just need to stay strong
Beside myself is where I belong… 

Freestyler...

Fading Out

Fading Out

You're all alone, swollen up with hate.

Fighting against what seems to be your fate.

You could run or hide but there is no escape.

All roads lead you back to your first mistake...

You feel alive with pain, but powerless with fear.

It claws through your brain, and escapes in a tear.

You want to let it out, to make it go away.

But your so filled with doubt, confused what others say...

You hate the days before, the days you could smile.

You just want to ignore those memories for a while.

Because you can't tell what's real or what is fake.

You keep falling apart with every step you take...

You're too lost, too cold,

To ever be saved.

It's like you're living life

walking to your grave.....

My Dwelling Place

My Dwelling Place

This emotion has swallowed me whole
It has gotten inside and has taken control
Holding me hostage eroding my soul
Cutting into my core leaving a hole

A void a weakness something stronger than me
Blatantly bullying the parts that you cannot see
If only from my own feelings I could finally flee
I could cut away this emotion and set myself free 

Instead of being a prisoner trapped here in my mind
Scared to look deeper in fear of what it is I may find
Because these emotions they have me resigned
Bound and cut off so cleverly confined

Court up and tied in my own personal hell
Leaving me broken just an empty shell
With no-one to go to and no-one to tell
Inside my own body I sit and I dwell

Empty Glass

Empty Glass
Feeling like an empty glass,
Please fill me up.
Fill me up with love, care and stability
I can no longer stand like this.


Without love and care,
I fall to the ground.
I shatter to a million pieces
Yet no one still cares.


Eventually I am swept away
And thrown into the garbage can.
That's the end of life for me
A broken glass, neglected and forgotten...

SiL3nT

"SiL3nT"

CANT B3LI3V3 I F3LL AGAIN

DIDNT THINK WITH MY H3AD

I JUZT LIST3N3D TO UR WORDS

AND BABY I F3LT NO STR3SS

I WAS JUST BLIND TO S33

THAT W3 COULD N3V3R B3

I WAS JUST WASTING MY TIM3

ON SOM3THING THAT COULD'VE B33N

BUT IT N3V3R R3ALLY DID

AND IM TIR3D OF F33LING LIKE THIS

WAITING FOR YOU TO CHANG3

AND BLAMING MYS3LF ONC3 AGAIN

BUT THATS ALL CHANG3D

CUZ IM TIR3D OF LIVIN THIS WAY

ITS MY TIM3 TO L3AV3

AND NOW UR JUST ANOTH3R M3MORY

ILL FIND SOM3ON3 N3W

MAYB3 SOM3ON3 WITH A DIFF3R3NT ATTITUD3

IM SORRY FOR B3LI3VING THIS CRAZY DR3AM

I SHUDDA KNOWN B3TT3R

BUT I THOUGHT W3 W3R3 M3ANT TO B3

NOW I S33 YOUR TRU3 COLORS

AND 3V3N THOUGH IV3 TRI3D I CAN N3V3R HAT3

I CAN FORGIV3 BUT ILL N3V3R FORG3T

CUZ ONC3 A LIAR ALWAYS A LIAR THATS WAT PPL3 SAY

IM NOT GONNA BLAM3 MYS3LF THIS TIM3

CUZ I TRI3D AND I TRI3D

I THOUGHT W3 JUST N33D3D SOM3 TIM3

BUT WHY'D YOU HAV3 TO LI3

I CRI3D FOR YOU B3FOR3 BUT THIS TIM3 NOT 3V3N A SINGL3 TEAR

CUZ IM NO LONG3R A FOOL AND CUZ N0W I KN0W WAT IS R3AL .....

By FreeStyler..